graduation

Do I blog? Well not very much anymore. I've been far too stressed out and crazy to sit down and think let alone type. But I'll try for a quickie here. So I walk the stage for "graduation" this Friday. what you say, this Friday! Yeah, I haven't told many people, and i don't know why really. one it doesn't really get me excited to sit in an hours long ceremony, next to probably no one I will know since I don't really have any school friends, and then have my nano second of fame that is meaningless except the pageantry. if that even makes sense. well anyways, the other thing about this whole graduating thing is that i want to know my grades before friday so i can walk the stage confident that it will mean something. i know i passed my classes. except there is a one unit 'internship' that i have to write a paper on and i haven't even gotten near started- hence the free time today that i am spending bogging instead of working on it! and then I got an incomplete from the summer time and I told that teacher that I'd have the paper in weeks ago... and of course it isn't done. so i might walk the stage Friday, but i won't be confident that it will mean anything because it just might be that I'll walk the stage and then still have more school work to do (next semester). sigh. and the sad thing is that it's all self induced. self destruction or self sabotage. i only mean the best and i know that i can get it done.. it's just so damn hard with so many other things going on... at least if i finish this then I'll know that I'm done... done done done... i really can't wait for that.. mark one big thing off of my to do list: school. sigh. ok, enough for now... excuse the crappy grammar and sentence structure... saving it for my paper.